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adrian_baca
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Choices
Posted on: 1/29/08 at 12:13 am
Life is full of them. The last couple of years I have been making too many, not always the right ones, but had to be made. The ones that affect are easy to handle, the ones that affect others, no. A year and a half ago I had to make one that affected many, and now it is hounting me. I was aware of that decision, I knew its consequenses,but it is hard to deal with. I need a change of life, a better job, new air, vacations..... More choices to make.
How many choices have you made in your life? How do you deal with the difficult ones? How have you deal with their consequences?
Thank you, just for reading this words.
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RE: Choices
Posted on: 2/1/08 at 10:48 pm
"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference."
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RE: Choices
Posted on: 2/3/08 at 9:09 pm
Words of wisdom, thanks a lot Elizabeth.
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RE: Choices
Posted on: 5/29/08 at 8:28 pm
Just need to get it out of my chest again, wrote it at 1am Saturday,. This happened on Friday May 23rd.

Just writing you after a hard and difficult week here at the Mexican side of the border, the last months have been very violent on the city because of the drug cartels, trying to control the zone and drug traffic to the US, to many deaths and kidnaps, most related to the cartels but some innocent bystanders. More and more federal police and even the army are here to try to stop this. Seems so vain. Juarez is a city with a really bad reputation, and it is getting worst.

Was in the morning at the bank to make payment, a man with her daughter in the line in front of me, just six years old. Got out of the bank and saw them going to their car, very close to mine. I was about to open my car when an large SUV stopped next to the man's car, the little girl was inside and his dad just opened the door. Two masked men got off the car with large weapons, shouted to him, he just said "not here". I believed they were going to kill him there but didn't because of the man's daughter. They just took them inside the SUV, one of them pointed his weapon to me and two other women that were close, not to move or he will fire, then took off. One of the women and I took the girl inside the bank, she was crying and screaming. Waited until the police and the army arrived. Was there for two hours until they finished to take declarations.
After that stayed with my folks and brother, talk about what happened and then returned to the school to give the last class. Back at home I checked the exams and works.
Went to bed, but I can't sleep. I remember the whole scene. Wondering what if they decided to open fire. That little girl and the women may be hurt or dead. Wanted to do something. Now I am shaking and crying. I feel angry, useless, impotent, afraid, sad. Too many feelings.

I just needed let it out, and the only way I can is by writing it.

Sorry and thanks for listen
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Frustrated, angry, mad and sad.
Posted on: 6/3/08 at 9:51 pm
So sad of all the things that happen to my city. Fear just turn into frustation. It is an pointless discussion, when a society does nothing to put a remedy, the attitude everyone shows. It is right to feel fear, but a huge mistake to let that fear rule your life.
There is always something wrong, and all it is magnified by the mass media, goverments and organizations, local and abroad. The sad part, society became insensitive.
Mass Media, just google the name Juarez
Goverments, by the incompetence and curruption of ours. Abroad: according to the Department of State be aware of visiting Juarez, it is a "dangerous" site. Which means that everyone that lives here, myself included, are dangerous people.
This world is so full or shit and hypocrisy.
Just came to mind the movie Babel. Catte Blanchett not drinking the Coca-Cola without ice because the water from Morrocco may sick her, but hurt and almost killed by a bullet made in the clean safe environment of an american factory.
Fuck, I am not a martyr, but sometimes it is needed in order for a society to react.